1 00:00:07,000 --> 00:00:38,281 [ Sync'd and Uploaded By ] [ Ozeb14 ] 2 00:02:09,477 --> 00:02:11,918 Friday, 30 November, 1962 3 00:03:25,073 --> 00:03:28,775 Waking up begins with saying ''am'' and ''now''. 4 00:03:28,869 --> 00:03:31,277 Jennifer, I'm not gonna tell you again. 5 00:03:50,682 --> 00:03:54,978 For the past eight months waking up has actually hurt. 6 00:03:59,106 --> 00:04:03,485 The cold realization that I'm still here slowly sets in. 7 00:04:04,904 --> 00:04:07,771 I was never teribly fond of waking up. 8 00:04:07,865 --> 00:04:11,316 I was never one to jump out of bed and greet the day with a smile like Jim was. 9 00:04:12,536 --> 00:04:16,916 I used to want to punch him sometimes in the morning he was so happy. 10 00:04:16,999 --> 00:04:20,753 I always used to tell him that only fools greet the day with a smile... 11 00:04:20,836 --> 00:04:23,756 ...that only fools possibly escape the simple truth. 12 00:04:23,839 --> 00:04:26,707 That now isn't simply now. 13 00:04:28,010 --> 00:04:31,013 It's a cold reminder. One day later than yesterday. 14 00:04:31,847 --> 00:04:34,683 One year later than last year. 15 00:04:34,767 --> 00:04:39,094 And that sooner or later it will come. 16 00:04:39,813 --> 00:04:42,566 He used to laugh at me and then give me kiss on the cheek. 17 00:04:44,109 --> 00:04:47,394 It takes time in the morning for me to become George. 18 00:04:47,488 --> 00:04:51,898 The time to adjust to what is expected of George and how he is to behave. 19 00:04:53,493 --> 00:04:56,579 By the time I have dressed and put the final layer of polish... 20 00:04:56,663 --> 00:05:01,042 ...on the now slightly stiff but quite perfect George... 21 00:05:02,502 --> 00:05:04,545 ...I know fully what part I'm supposed to play 22 00:05:17,183 --> 00:05:20,551 Looking in the mirror staring back at me isn't so much as a face... 23 00:05:20,645 --> 00:05:23,898 ...as the expression of a predicament. 24 00:05:23,982 --> 00:05:27,183 Just get through the goddamn day. 25 00:05:30,029 --> 00:05:32,021 A bit melodramatic, I guess. 26 00:05:32,115 --> 00:05:33,491 But then again... 27 00:05:35,285 --> 00:05:37,662 ...my heart has been broken. 28 00:05:37,745 --> 00:05:41,113 I feel as if I am sinking, drowning... 29 00:05:41,916 --> 00:05:43,543 ...can't breathe. 30 00:06:36,970 --> 00:06:41,016 Aren't you going to say something? Are you kidding? It's spectacular. 31 00:06:41,099 --> 00:06:42,433 What are you doing? 32 00:06:42,516 --> 00:06:45,008 Just stop it. Stop it. 33 00:06:45,102 --> 00:06:47,313 I don't think that you're quite ready for life in a glass house. 34 00:06:48,230 --> 00:06:50,191 Drapes, old man. 35 00:06:52,360 --> 00:06:55,613 You're the one who is always saying that we are invisible. 36 00:06:56,864 --> 00:06:59,189 That's not exactly what I meant. 37 00:07:21,972 --> 00:07:25,142 For the first time in my life I can't see my future. 38 00:07:26,644 --> 00:07:29,105 Every day goes by in a haze. 39 00:07:30,272 --> 00:07:33,223 But today I have decided will be different. 40 00:07:43,952 --> 00:07:47,069 Finally. You know it's been raining here all day. 41 00:07:47,205 --> 00:07:49,833 I've been trapped in this house waiting for you to call. 42 00:07:49,916 --> 00:07:53,534 I'm sorry, I must have the wrong number. I'm calling for Mr. George Falconer. 43 00:07:55,130 --> 00:07:58,716 I'm sorry, I was expecting someone else. Yes sir, you have indeed called the... 44 00:07:58,800 --> 00:08:01,834 ...correct number. How may I help you? - This is Harold Ackerley. 45 00:08:01,928 --> 00:08:03,586 I'm Jim's cousin. 46 00:08:03,680 --> 00:08:07,016 Of course. Yes, good evening Mr. Ackerley. 47 00:08:07,100 --> 00:08:10,520 I'm afraid I'm calling with some bad news. 48 00:08:11,980 --> 00:08:14,107 There has been a car accident. 49 00:08:14,941 --> 00:08:16,452 An accident? 50 00:08:16,488 --> 00:08:19,549 There has been a lot of snow here lately and the roads have been icy. 51 00:08:20,864 --> 00:08:24,367 On his way into town, Jim lost control of his car. 52 00:08:25,744 --> 00:08:27,620 It was instantaneous apparently. 53 00:08:32,458 --> 00:08:36,618 It happened late yesterday, but his parents didn’t want to call you. 54 00:08:39,339 --> 00:08:40,830 I see. 55 00:08:40,924 --> 00:08:43,166 In fact, they don't that I'm calling you now. 56 00:08:43,260 --> 00:08:45,752 But I thought that you should know. 57 00:08:51,477 --> 00:08:53,718 Thank you. 58 00:08:53,812 --> 00:08:58,192 I know this must be quite a shock. It was for all of us. 59 00:09:00,152 --> 00:09:01,810 Yes, indeed. 60 00:09:05,657 --> 00:09:08,525 - Will there be a service? - The day after tomorrow. 61 00:09:12,915 --> 00:09:15,834 Well, I suppose I should get off the phone... 62 00:09:16,835 --> 00:09:18,962 ...and book a plane flight. 63 00:09:19,046 --> 00:09:22,049 The service is just for family. 64 00:09:24,843 --> 00:09:26,636 For family, of course. 65 00:09:29,722 --> 00:09:31,766 Well, thank you for calling. 66 00:09:33,351 --> 00:09:35,061 - Mr. Ackerley? - Yes? 67 00:09:35,978 --> 00:09:39,065 - May I ask what happened to the dogs? - Dogs? 68 00:09:39,148 --> 00:09:43,528 There was a dog with him but he died. Was there another one? 69 00:09:43,611 --> 00:09:46,614 Yes, there was a small female. 70 00:09:46,697 --> 00:09:48,606 I don't know, I'm sorry. 71 00:09:48,699 --> 00:09:51,410 I haven't heard anyone mentioning another dog. 72 00:09:59,001 --> 00:10:02,088 - Well, thank you for calling Mr. Ackerley. - Goodbye, Mr. Falconer. 73 00:13:52,439 --> 00:13:53,555 Hello, Charley. 74 00:13:53,649 --> 00:13:55,473 How did you know it was me? 75 00:13:55,567 --> 00:13:58,402 Charlotte, nobody else calls me before eight in the morning. 76 00:13:58,486 --> 00:14:02,406 I didn't call too early, did I? You sound grumpy. 77 00:14:02,490 --> 00:14:04,064 No, I have a headache. 78 00:14:04,158 --> 00:14:08,454 Listen, I was going to call you actually. Is too late to change my mind about tonight. 79 00:14:08,579 --> 00:14:12,281 No, of course not. I haven't seen you all week. 80 00:14:12,375 --> 00:14:16,243 - I'm dying for a dose of you. - I know, I'm sorry. 81 00:14:16,337 --> 00:14:19,048 So great, I'll see you tonight. 82 00:14:19,131 --> 00:14:20,956 I have to run. I'm late for the work. 83 00:14:21,092 --> 00:14:23,333 I'll call you later from school. 84 00:14:23,427 --> 00:14:25,419 Alright, I see you then. 85 00:14:25,513 --> 00:14:28,005 - Bye, kiddo. - Bye, old man. 86 00:15:12,642 --> 00:15:14,519 Good morning, Mr. George. 87 00:15:16,229 --> 00:15:18,648 Sir, you don't look so good today. 88 00:15:18,685 --> 00:15:20,921 Good morning, Alva. No, I didn't sleep very well. 89 00:15:21,568 --> 00:15:23,861 You forgot to take the bread out of the freezer this morning. 90 00:15:23,897 --> 00:15:25,313 It stays fresh that way. 91 00:15:25,530 --> 00:15:27,824 It was a little too fresh this morning. 92 00:15:27,907 --> 00:15:29,564 There are some papers laid out on my desk... 93 00:15:29,601 --> 00:15:31,755 ...which need to stay there. Please don't move them. 94 00:15:32,078 --> 00:15:35,582 - I'm afraid my pen leaked all over the bed. - It's okay, sir. 95 00:15:35,665 --> 00:15:37,490 - Alva? - Yes, sir? 96 00:15:37,584 --> 00:15:40,295 Thank you, you're a wonderful. 97 00:16:49,799 --> 00:16:54,094 This government, as promised, has maintained the closest surveillance... 98 00:16:54,130 --> 00:16:58,356 ...of the Soviet military buildup on the Island of Cuba. 99 00:16:59,234 --> 00:17:02,362 Within the past week unmistakable evidence... 100 00:17:02,641 --> 00:17:04,793 ...has established the fact... 101 00:18:14,529 --> 00:18:15,997 - Professor Falconer? - Yes? 102 00:18:16,034 --> 00:18:18,433 There was a student here this morning asking for your address. 103 00:18:18,470 --> 00:18:19,649 My address? 104 00:18:21,411 --> 00:18:24,039 - Did you give it to him? - Yes, sir. 105 00:18:24,122 --> 00:18:25,373 I did. 106 00:18:25,457 --> 00:18:27,115 I hope that's okay. 107 00:18:27,209 --> 00:18:31,045 I realize that I probably shouldn't have but he was very nice. 108 00:18:31,128 --> 00:18:33,589 Before I knew it he... 109 00:18:34,632 --> 00:18:37,582 Your hair looks great up like that. I really fits suits you. 110 00:18:39,178 --> 00:18:40,836 You always look so beautiful... 111 00:18:40,930 --> 00:18:43,171 ...really fresh... 112 00:18:43,265 --> 00:18:45,809 You have such a lovely smile. 113 00:18:53,275 --> 00:18:55,350 - Arpège? - Sir? 114 00:18:57,404 --> 00:18:58,979 Really beautiful. 115 00:19:08,982 --> 00:19:11,744 ...that a series of offensive missile sites... 116 00:19:12,336 --> 00:19:14,546 - Good morning, Don. - Good morning, George. 117 00:19:29,936 --> 00:19:31,677 Good morning, George. 118 00:19:32,563 --> 00:19:34,305 Good morning, Grant. 119 00:19:35,149 --> 00:19:37,694 You look awful. What have you been doing? 120 00:19:41,447 --> 00:19:42,563 Look around you, Grant. 121 00:19:42,657 --> 00:19:45,775 Most of these students aspire to nothing more than corporate job... 122 00:19:45,868 --> 00:19:49,403 ...and a desire to raise coke-drinking, TV-watching children... 123 00:19:49,497 --> 00:19:51,822 ...who as soon as they can speak start chanting TV jingles... 124 00:19:51,916 --> 00:19:55,034 ...and smashing things with hammers. - You're really scaring me today, George. 125 00:19:55,128 --> 00:19:57,131 Don't tell me. You have easy time with these students. 126 00:19:57,167 --> 00:19:59,966 I found them staring at me in a kind of bovine stupor... 127 00:20:00,049 --> 00:20:01,624 ...as if I were lecturing in a foreign language. 128 00:20:01,718 --> 00:20:04,178 Remind me why we shouldn't all just be annihilated. 129 00:20:04,262 --> 00:20:05,762 You seem to think this is all a joke. 130 00:20:05,912 --> 00:20:08,586 We're living in a world where nuclear war is a real threat. 131 00:20:08,622 --> 00:20:10,644 I don't understand how that doesn't concern you. 132 00:20:10,681 --> 00:20:12,426 You're serious, aren't you? 133 00:20:12,520 --> 00:20:13,386 Yes, I'm serious. 134 00:20:13,479 --> 00:20:16,764 George did you even read the article I gave you on bomb shelters? 135 00:20:16,858 --> 00:20:18,673 Our is almost done. We had 3 contractors work on it... 136 00:20:18,710 --> 00:20:20,335 ...so none of them know what we've got. 137 00:20:20,694 --> 00:20:23,405 I'm having the outside of it landscaped so no one will that it's there. 138 00:20:23,488 --> 00:20:24,354 Really? 139 00:20:27,793 --> 00:20:29,667 If word gets out that you've got a better shelter... 140 00:20:29,704 --> 00:20:31,903 ...then everyone will try to get in when something happens. 141 00:20:31,997 --> 00:20:33,332 So? 142 00:20:33,415 --> 00:20:36,533 There will be no time for sentiment when the Russians fire a missile at us. 143 00:20:36,907 --> 00:20:39,766 If it's going to be a world with no time for sentiment Grant... 144 00:20:39,803 --> 00:20:41,453 ...the it's not a world that I want to live in. 145 00:21:27,093 --> 00:21:30,012 After Many a Summer Dies the Swan. 146 00:21:35,142 --> 00:21:36,563 I think you've all... 147 00:21:38,033 --> 00:21:41,024 ...read the Huxley novel I assigned more than three weeks ago? 148 00:21:45,403 --> 00:21:47,561 How does the title relate to our story? 149 00:21:48,489 --> 00:21:50,647 - Yes, Mr. Mong. - It doesn't. 150 00:21:50,741 --> 00:21:55,652 It's about a rich guy who's too afraid that he's too old for this girl... 151 00:21:55,746 --> 00:21:58,666 ...and thinks that a young guy... 152 00:22:26,484 --> 00:22:27,517 Russ. 153 00:22:39,748 --> 00:22:42,500 Russ? 154 00:22:59,601 --> 00:23:01,175 Yes, Mr. Hirsch. 155 00:23:01,269 --> 00:23:04,803 Sir, on page 79, Mr. Propter says that... 156 00:23:04,897 --> 00:23:08,650 ...the stupidest text in the Bible is “they hated me without a cause.” 157 00:23:08,734 --> 00:23:11,508 Does that mean the Nazis were right to hate the Jews? 158 00:23:11,545 --> 00:23:13,780 - Is Huxley an anti-Semite? - No. 159 00:23:22,247 --> 00:23:24,917 No, Mr. Huxley is not an anti-Semite. 160 00:23:26,043 --> 00:23:28,007 Of course, the Nazis were wrong to hate the Jews. 161 00:23:28,044 --> 00:23:30,132 But their hating the Jews was not without a cause. 162 00:23:33,050 --> 00:23:34,791 It's just that the cause wasn't real. 163 00:23:36,178 --> 00:23:37,836 The cause was imagined. 164 00:23:37,930 --> 00:23:40,641 The cause was fear. 165 00:23:42,476 --> 00:23:44,937 Let's leave the Jews out o this just for a moment. 166 00:23:46,647 --> 00:23:49,514 Let's think of another minority. One that... 167 00:23:49,608 --> 00:23:51,819 One that can go unnoticed if it needs to. 168 00:23:54,446 --> 00:23:57,898 There are all sorts of minorities, blondes for example... 169 00:23:57,990 --> 00:24:00,201 ...or people with freckles. 170 00:24:01,619 --> 00:24:04,486 But a minority is only thought of as one... 171 00:24:04,580 --> 00:24:07,917 ...when it constitutes some kind of threat to the majority. 172 00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:10,461 A real threat or an imagined one. 173 00:24:10,545 --> 00:24:12,870 And therein lies the fear. 174 00:24:15,132 --> 00:24:19,053 If the minority is somehow invisible... 175 00:24:20,346 --> 00:24:22,922 ...and the fear is much greater. 176 00:24:24,016 --> 00:24:26,995 That fear is why the minority is persecuted. 177 00:24:27,032 --> 00:24:28,551 So, you see there always is a cause. 178 00:24:28,588 --> 00:24:29,739 The cause is fear. 179 00:24:30,273 --> 00:24:31,983 Minorities are just people. 180 00:24:33,693 --> 00:24:34,861 People like us. 181 00:24:42,326 --> 00:24:44,318 I can see that I've lost you a bit. 182 00:24:44,954 --> 00:24:48,572 So tell you what? We're gonna forget about Mr. Huxley today... 183 00:24:49,625 --> 00:24:52,378 ...and we're gonna talk about fear. 184 00:24:52,460 --> 00:24:54,588 Fear, after all, is our real enemy. 185 00:24:55,255 --> 00:24:57,799 Fear is taking over our world. 186 00:24:57,883 --> 00:25:01,751 Fear is being used as a tool of manipulation in our society. 187 00:25:01,845 --> 00:25:05,432 It's how politicians peddle policy. 188 00:25:05,515 --> 00:25:08,299 It's how Madison Avenue sells us things that we don't need. 189 00:25:08,393 --> 00:25:09,968 Think about it. 190 00:25:11,313 --> 00:25:12,856 Fear of being attacked. 191 00:25:14,441 --> 00:25:17,611 Fear of that there are communists lurking around every corner. 192 00:25:17,694 --> 00:25:19,849 Fear of that some little Caribbean country... 193 00:25:19,886 --> 00:25:22,399 ...that doesn't believe in our way of life poses a threat to us. 194 00:25:22,449 --> 00:25:24,675 Fear that black culture may take over the world. 195 00:25:24,711 --> 00:25:27,829 Fear of Elvis Presley's hips. 196 00:25:29,039 --> 00:25:31,197 Actually, maybe that one is a real fear. 197 00:25:34,127 --> 00:25:37,631 Fear that our bad breath might ruin our friendships. 198 00:25:40,342 --> 00:25:42,886 Fear of growing old and being alone. 199 00:25:50,309 --> 00:25:54,521 The of that we're useless and that no one cares what we have to say. 200 00:25:59,109 --> 00:26:00,767 Have a good weekend. 201 00:26:07,034 --> 00:26:09,985 Sir! May I talk to you for a minute? 202 00:26:10,079 --> 00:26:12,831 Why don't you always talk to us like that? 203 00:26:12,915 --> 00:26:14,740 I don't think it went over very well. 204 00:26:14,833 --> 00:26:17,075 Man, fear of things gets to me all the time. 205 00:26:17,169 --> 00:26:20,120 But you can't talk about it with anyone or you just sound like a fool. 206 00:26:20,214 --> 00:26:24,051 - You can't even talk about it with Lois? - I don't think she's afraid of anything. 207 00:26:24,134 --> 00:26:26,126 Everyone's afraid of something, Kenny. 208 00:26:26,220 --> 00:26:28,013 What are you afraid of, sir? 209 00:26:28,097 --> 00:26:29,807 Cars. 210 00:26:29,890 --> 00:26:32,374 How can you live in Los Angeles and be afraid of cars? 211 00:26:32,410 --> 00:26:33,589 Maybe you can't. 212 00:26:34,200 --> 00:26:38,305 Sometimes my fear of things can almost paralyze me. 213 00:26:38,399 --> 00:26:42,641 It's like I get really panic stricken and I feel like I might explode or something. 214 00:26:43,653 --> 00:26:46,228 - May I ask you a personal question, sir? - If you like. 215 00:26:47,532 --> 00:26:49,242 Do you ever get high? 216 00:26:49,951 --> 00:26:54,028 - How old do I look to you? - Have you ever taken any drugs? 217 00:26:54,622 --> 00:26:55,821 Of course, Kenny. 218 00:26:56,457 --> 00:26:57,573 Like what? 219 00:26:58,543 --> 00:27:01,827 I don't feel I should be discussing this with you on campus Mr. Potter. 220 00:27:01,921 --> 00:27:05,174 It's the only way I get by sometimes. 221 00:27:05,258 --> 00:27:08,709 - Have you ever tried mescaline? - Not my drug of choice. 222 00:27:08,803 --> 00:27:12,755 I shaved off one of my eyebrows once on mescaline. Not a good look for me. 223 00:27:12,849 --> 00:27:15,601 - Sir? - I looked in the mirror. 224 00:27:15,685 --> 00:27:17,426 Big mistake if you're high on mescaline. 225 00:27:17,520 --> 00:27:20,189 I decided that my eyebrows were taking over my face. 226 00:27:20,273 --> 00:27:21,573 Before I knew it, I had shaved one off. 227 00:27:21,610 --> 00:27:24,372 I wore a band-aid over my eye for about six weeks while my brow grew back. 228 00:27:24,408 --> 00:27:25,267 Very embarrassing. 229 00:27:25,778 --> 00:27:28,531 - You didn't take it again after that? - Kenny, have you been listening to me? 230 00:27:28,614 --> 00:27:30,940 I shaved off my eyebrow. 231 00:27:31,034 --> 00:27:34,068 I wanted an experience Mr. Potter, not a career on stage. 232 00:27:37,414 --> 00:27:41,032 If you ever want to get high sir, I usually have some dope. 233 00:27:41,126 --> 00:27:43,201 You're really mad aren't you? 234 00:27:50,302 --> 00:27:53,788 I'm sorry, sir. I guess you don't feel very comfortable talking like this. 235 00:27:53,824 --> 00:27:55,297 What makes you say that? 236 00:27:55,390 --> 00:27:58,842 Lois thinks you're kind of cagey. Like this morning... 237 00:27:58,935 --> 00:28:01,886 ...when you were listening to all that crap we were talking about Huxley. 238 00:28:01,980 --> 00:28:03,065 Well, not all of you. 239 00:28:03,148 --> 00:28:05,192 I didn't notice you open your mouth once. 240 00:28:05,275 --> 00:28:06,985 I was watching you. 241 00:28:07,069 --> 00:28:11,782 You let us ramble on and on and then you straighten us out. 242 00:28:11,865 --> 00:28:15,202 But you never really tell us everything you know about something. 243 00:28:16,161 --> 00:28:19,529 Well, maybe that's true up to a point. 244 00:28:20,916 --> 00:28:22,709 It's not that I want to be cagey. 245 00:28:23,710 --> 00:28:27,954 It's just that I can't really discuss things completely openly... 246 00:28:28,048 --> 00:28:29,330 ...at school. 247 00:28:29,424 --> 00:28:31,550 Someone would misunderstand. 248 00:28:33,302 --> 00:28:36,420 I tried that today. It didn't really work out. 249 00:28:42,770 --> 00:28:45,262 What was it you wanted to get, sir? 250 00:28:45,356 --> 00:28:47,681 Nothing. I was on my way to the dean's office. 251 00:28:47,775 --> 00:28:50,444 You mean you walked all the way down here just to talk to me? 252 00:28:50,528 --> 00:28:52,436 - Why not? - Well... 253 00:28:52,530 --> 00:28:55,647 I think you deserve something for that, sir. 254 00:28:55,741 --> 00:28:56,773 Here sir, take your pick. 255 00:28:58,702 --> 00:29:00,830 - It's on me. - Thank you. 256 00:29:04,500 --> 00:29:06,127 I thought you'd probably pick blue. 257 00:29:07,128 --> 00:29:10,214 - Why blue? - Isn't blue supposed to be spiritual? 258 00:29:10,297 --> 00:29:12,007 What makes you think I'm spiritual? 259 00:29:15,553 --> 00:29:16,960 And you? Red? 260 00:29:19,014 --> 00:29:21,590 - What is red stand for? - A lot of things. 261 00:29:21,684 --> 00:29:23,675 Rage, lust. 262 00:29:25,270 --> 00:29:26,354 No kidding? 263 00:29:32,152 --> 00:29:33,528 Well sir, I... 264 00:29:33,611 --> 00:29:35,102 I guess I see you around. 265 00:30:57,611 --> 00:30:58,643 Hello? 266 00:30:58,737 --> 00:31:00,478 What are you up to, kiddo? 267 00:31:00,572 --> 00:31:04,326 Just trying to finish up a book. How's your day going? 268 00:31:04,409 --> 00:31:05,577 Fine. 269 00:31:05,661 --> 00:31:09,373 I was just leaving school and wanted to know if you needed anything for tonight. 270 00:31:09,456 --> 00:31:11,667 Thanks, you're sweet. 271 00:31:11,750 --> 00:31:13,961 But I think I'm all set. 272 00:31:15,002 --> 00:31:16,493 Be a darling and... 273 00:31:16,587 --> 00:31:21,749 ...pick up gin for me, Tangueray. I love the color of the bottle. 274 00:31:22,635 --> 00:31:25,419 You love what's in it. What time do you want me? 275 00:31:26,639 --> 00:31:29,048 7 would be great if that's ok with you. 276 00:31:29,141 --> 00:31:31,926 Perfect. I'll see you then. 277 00:31:32,019 --> 00:31:34,011 I'll see you then. Bye, Geo. 278 00:31:34,105 --> 00:31:35,273 Bye, kiddo. 279 00:31:57,879 --> 00:31:59,870 Beautiful. 280 00:32:54,851 --> 00:32:57,395 - Yes, Mr. Potter? - Are you going somewhere, sir? 281 00:32:57,479 --> 00:33:00,430 That is usually why people get into their cars. 282 00:33:00,523 --> 00:33:02,729 No, I mean are you going on vacation or something? 283 00:33:02,765 --> 00:33:05,058 - What? - I saw you cleaning out your office. 284 00:33:10,240 --> 00:33:13,191 What exactly is it that you want, Kenny? 285 00:33:14,995 --> 00:33:18,530 I was just hoping that perhaps we could get together for a drink or something sometime. 286 00:33:19,458 --> 00:33:21,033 Why is that? 287 00:33:22,461 --> 00:33:23,796 I don't know, sir. 288 00:33:24,630 --> 00:33:26,590 Because I think you might like it. And... 289 00:33:28,384 --> 00:33:30,042 ...because you seem as though you could use a friend. 290 00:33:30,135 --> 00:33:32,680 - Oh really? - Yes, sir. You do. 291 00:33:37,434 --> 00:33:39,311 They may be right. 292 00:33:40,854 --> 00:33:43,482 It will have to be another time. I'm late. 293 00:33:44,984 --> 00:33:46,360 But thank you for the invitation. 294 00:33:47,569 --> 00:33:49,863 And thank you for the talk earlier. 295 00:33:51,323 --> 00:33:53,398 And stay away from the mescaline. 296 00:34:25,898 --> 00:34:27,358 Hello, Mr. Falconer. 297 00:34:27,442 --> 00:34:29,819 - Hello. How are you today? - I'm fine, sir. 298 00:34:29,902 --> 00:34:32,447 - Do you need to get into your box? - Yes, I do. 299 00:34:32,530 --> 00:34:33,865 Follow me. 300 00:34:42,415 --> 00:34:43,750 Here you are, sir. 301 00:34:46,044 --> 00:34:48,004 If you could please sign here... 302 00:34:56,762 --> 00:34:58,096 - Thank you. - Thank you. 303 00:36:05,830 --> 00:36:08,322 So explain your friend Charlotte to me. 304 00:36:09,667 --> 00:36:11,627 What would you like to know? 305 00:36:11,710 --> 00:36:14,255 I don't know. You seem very intimate I guess. 306 00:36:15,589 --> 00:36:18,509 Like you were once together or something. 307 00:36:19,635 --> 00:36:21,846 - You haven't slept with her, have you? - Yes. 308 00:36:24,640 --> 00:36:25,756 And? 309 00:36:27,143 --> 00:36:29,301 A few times when we were young. 310 00:36:29,348 --> 00:36:31,325 I wouldn't say that it meant nothing to me... 311 00:36:31,361 --> 00:36:34,026 ...but it certainly meant a great deal more to Charley. 312 00:36:34,108 --> 00:36:36,266 It was a long time ago in London. 313 00:36:38,070 --> 00:36:40,145 I love Charley. 314 00:36:40,239 --> 00:36:43,241 - And We were very close friends but that's all. - Well, I'm confused. 315 00:36:44,576 --> 00:36:46,619 If you sleep with women then why are you with me? 316 00:36:46,703 --> 00:36:48,778 Because I fall in love with men. 317 00:36:48,872 --> 00:36:50,947 Because I fell in love with you. 318 00:36:53,251 --> 00:36:55,545 Anyway, doesn't everyone sleep with women when they're young? 319 00:36:55,628 --> 00:36:58,173 - I haven't. - You're joking. 320 00:36:58,256 --> 00:37:00,498 No, I'm not. 321 00:37:00,592 --> 00:37:02,451 It was just never anything that interested me. 322 00:37:02,487 --> 00:37:05,420 Well, you're awfully modern aren't you? 323 00:37:05,430 --> 00:37:08,516 You know, I think that was the first thing that I noticed about you... 324 00:37:09,726 --> 00:37:11,936 ...was how sure of yourself you were. 325 00:37:14,522 --> 00:37:17,473 How can you be so sure about everything at your age? 326 00:37:18,610 --> 00:37:20,487 You think I'm sure of myself? 327 00:37:21,070 --> 00:37:22,614 Of course, you are. 328 00:37:44,760 --> 00:37:46,418 I'm finished now. Thank you. 329 00:37:52,267 --> 00:37:54,009 Yes, Mr. Falconer? 330 00:37:55,229 --> 00:37:56,939 Is there something else we can help you with today? 331 00:37:57,022 --> 00:38:00,473 I can't find my check book and I need some cash. 332 00:38:00,567 --> 00:38:02,893 Not my day I'm afraid. Excuse me a minute. 333 00:38:56,664 --> 00:39:01,210 Mommy says bushy eyebrows are pedestrian, but I think yours are pretty. 334 00:39:02,587 --> 00:39:04,547 I think yours are pretty too. 335 00:39:04,630 --> 00:39:08,707 Why do you look so sad? Would you like to meet Charlton Heston? 336 00:39:10,386 --> 00:39:11,762 Ben Hur. 337 00:39:14,473 --> 00:39:16,548 He's our scorpion. 338 00:39:16,642 --> 00:39:20,803 Every night we throw in something new to him and watch him kill it. 339 00:39:20,897 --> 00:39:25,223 Daddy says it's like the colosseum. So my brother Tom put on all the columns in here. 340 00:39:25,317 --> 00:39:27,027 He wants to be a set designer. 341 00:39:28,028 --> 00:39:29,796 He hasn't eaten the spider yet... 342 00:39:29,833 --> 00:39:32,673 ...cause he's still full from the moth we gave him last night. 343 00:39:33,617 --> 00:39:36,567 Daddy says he wants to throw you in to the colosseum. 344 00:39:36,661 --> 00:39:38,872 No kidding? Why? 345 00:39:38,955 --> 00:39:41,906 He says you're light in your loafers... 346 00:39:42,000 --> 00:39:44,044 ...but you aren't even wearing loafers. 347 00:39:44,127 --> 00:39:46,254 I think my brother Tom is light in his loafers too... 348 00:39:46,338 --> 00:39:48,746 ...but he wears Keds. 349 00:39:50,508 --> 00:39:54,888 He made me do a hair conditioning treatment on my hair with eggs. 350 00:39:55,597 --> 00:39:57,474 Does it look shiny? 351 00:39:57,557 --> 00:39:59,935 Sweetheart, what are you doing bothering Mr. Falconer? 352 00:40:00,018 --> 00:40:02,687 She's not bothering me at all Susan. How are you? 353 00:40:02,771 --> 00:40:05,232 I'm glad to see you George. 354 00:40:06,691 --> 00:40:09,043 George, we're having a few people over tonight for drinks... 355 00:40:09,079 --> 00:40:10,905 ...and would love to have you join us if you could. 356 00:40:10,987 --> 00:40:15,867 - Thank you. That's very kind of you but I have plans. - Another time then. 357 00:40:15,951 --> 00:40:18,526 Jennifer, let's let Mr. Falconer get back to his banking. 358 00:40:18,620 --> 00:40:19,901 Goodbye, George. 359 00:40:19,995 --> 00:40:21,872 Bye, Susan. Bye, Jennifer. 360 00:40:31,465 --> 00:40:35,302 - May I help you, sir? - I'd like to buy some bullets for this gun, please. 361 00:40:35,386 --> 00:40:39,223 Yes, sir. This is a really old gun, sir. 362 00:40:39,306 --> 00:40:41,631 We have a two for one sale on handguns at the moment. 363 00:40:41,725 --> 00:40:45,969 - Perhaps one for the little lady? - No thank you. Just the bullets, please. 364 00:40:47,940 --> 00:40:50,776 - Here you go. Anything else? - No, thank you. 365 00:40:50,859 --> 00:40:52,903 That would be $2.29, sir. 366 00:40:55,698 --> 00:40:57,241 Thank you. 367 00:41:35,069 --> 00:41:38,072 I'm sorry. I hope she didn't growl at you. 368 00:41:38,156 --> 00:41:40,366 She goes a little crazy sometimes when I have to leave her in the car. 369 00:41:40,450 --> 00:41:42,274 She's perfect. What's her name? 370 00:41:42,368 --> 00:41:44,193 India. 371 00:41:44,287 --> 00:41:45,861 Let's go there. 372 00:41:50,543 --> 00:41:52,952 You little baby. 373 00:41:55,673 --> 00:41:59,886 I used to have smooth fox terriers. You don't see them very often. 374 00:42:20,530 --> 00:42:22,522 The very smell of buttered toast. 375 00:42:23,825 --> 00:42:25,233 She's still a puppy isn't she? 376 00:42:31,708 --> 00:42:32,991 Well. 377 00:42:33,085 --> 00:42:35,295 - Have a nice evening. - You too. 378 00:42:35,379 --> 00:42:36,755 Good night, India. 379 00:42:49,893 --> 00:42:52,385 - I'm sorry about that. - No, It's ok. 380 00:42:52,479 --> 00:42:56,858 - It's my fault. I'll get you another pack. - It's ok. Don't worry. 381 00:42:56,942 --> 00:42:58,902 No, no I insist. 382 00:43:03,781 --> 00:43:05,324 Thank you. 383 00:43:05,408 --> 00:43:07,149 I'm sorry about the broken glass. 384 00:43:07,910 --> 00:43:09,703 - Here you go. - Thanks man. 385 00:43:11,414 --> 00:43:12,957 You want one? 386 00:43:13,749 --> 00:43:15,741 No, thanks. 387 00:43:16,836 --> 00:43:18,629 Actually, yes. Why not? 388 00:43:19,296 --> 00:43:20,496 Thank you. 389 00:43:52,163 --> 00:43:53,956 - Carlos. - What did you say? 390 00:43:54,039 --> 00:43:56,532 Carlos. You asked me my name. 391 00:43:56,625 --> 00:43:58,585 Are you okay? 392 00:43:58,668 --> 00:44:00,409 Yeah. 393 00:44:01,379 --> 00:44:02,839 Yeah, I'm sorry. 394 00:44:07,225 --> 00:44:08,734 You're really something. 395 00:44:09,178 --> 00:44:11,430 You have an incredible face. 396 00:44:11,741 --> 00:44:14,361 Enjoy that. It's a great gift. 397 00:44:14,410 --> 00:44:15,851 Your Spanish is perfect. 398 00:44:15,977 --> 00:44:17,312 Thank you. 399 00:44:20,867 --> 00:44:23,099 I should have used it more. 400 00:44:23,599 --> 00:44:24,646 Well... 401 00:44:24,896 --> 00:44:26,759 It's not too late. 402 00:44:53,889 --> 00:44:55,171 What are you doing? 403 00:44:56,141 --> 00:44:58,550 Aren't we going somewhere? 404 00:44:58,644 --> 00:45:01,480 No. But, thanks. 405 00:45:07,070 --> 00:45:10,286 You know, it's the smog that makes it that color. 406 00:45:10,322 --> 00:45:12,491 I've never seen a sky like this before. 407 00:45:13,942 --> 00:45:17,685 Sometimes awful things have their own kind of beauty. 408 00:45:22,668 --> 00:45:24,159 Could I have another cigarette? 409 00:45:24,253 --> 00:45:25,827 Sure. 410 00:45:54,073 --> 00:45:56,909 - Are sure that you don't want to go for a drive? - I'm sure. 411 00:46:00,496 --> 00:46:02,321 - Where are you from? - Madrid. 412 00:46:02,415 --> 00:46:05,126 Madrid? How did you get here? 413 00:46:05,209 --> 00:46:07,034 It's a long story. 414 00:46:07,128 --> 00:46:10,214 I met a guy from LA at the hotel where I worked... 415 00:46:10,298 --> 00:46:13,801 ...who told me I could live with him and that he could get me an agent. 416 00:46:13,885 --> 00:46:16,554 But he never realized that I have a Spanish accent. 417 00:46:18,139 --> 00:46:21,507 I like your accent. You speak very well. 418 00:46:22,768 --> 00:46:27,815 - How did you learn English? - My mom had an American boyfriend when I was little. 419 00:46:27,899 --> 00:46:30,057 Is your mother in Madrid? 420 00:46:30,818 --> 00:46:32,612 Yes, she is. She cuts hair. 421 00:46:32,695 --> 00:46:36,032 She cut my hair before I left. Do you like it? 422 00:46:37,867 --> 00:46:41,202 - I thought it made me look like James Dean. - You are better than James Dean. 423 00:46:41,286 --> 00:46:42,746 Really? 424 00:46:42,829 --> 00:46:44,404 Thanks. 425 00:46:48,585 --> 00:46:51,452 No one has ever picked me up and not wanted something. 426 00:46:51,546 --> 00:46:53,204 I think you picked me up. 427 00:46:55,258 --> 00:46:57,052 This is kind of a serious day for me. 428 00:46:58,094 --> 00:47:01,514 Come on. What could be so serious for a guy like you? 429 00:47:02,891 --> 00:47:06,968 I'm just trying to get over an old love I guess. 430 00:47:08,647 --> 00:47:12,067 My mother says that lovers are like buses. 431 00:47:12,150 --> 00:47:14,903 You just have to wait a little while and another one comes along. 432 00:47:21,576 --> 00:47:23,317 I have to go. 433 00:47:24,695 --> 00:47:25,919 You're a nice guy. 434 00:47:26,252 --> 00:47:27,904 I hope you find... 435 00:47:28,105 --> 00:47:29,854 ...someone like you. 436 00:47:29,876 --> 00:47:31,701 Thanks. 437 00:47:31,795 --> 00:47:34,203 I'm going away. 438 00:48:31,310 --> 00:48:33,771 It's your turn to change it. 439 00:48:33,855 --> 00:48:36,482 Yeah, I'm not changing it. It's your turn. 440 00:48:36,566 --> 00:48:38,974 Besides, you never like what I put on anyway. 441 00:48:39,068 --> 00:48:41,988 I'll give you five dollars if you change it. I'm too old to get up. 442 00:48:42,071 --> 00:48:44,063 You're only old when it's convenient for you to be old. 443 00:48:44,157 --> 00:48:46,909 What are you reading anyway? 444 00:48:46,993 --> 00:48:49,401 Oh God. Not that depressing crap again. 445 00:48:49,495 --> 00:48:51,122 It's for my class. 446 00:48:52,665 --> 00:48:54,792 What highbrow work of fiction might you be reading? 447 00:48:57,545 --> 00:48:59,672 Don't be so smug. 448 00:49:03,301 --> 00:49:04,927 Man, what a life he has. 449 00:49:06,054 --> 00:49:08,097 - Don't you just envy him? - Why? 450 00:49:08,181 --> 00:49:10,224 Because he can sniff anyone's arse he wants? 451 00:49:11,684 --> 00:49:13,509 Nice. 452 00:49:13,603 --> 00:49:17,555 No, because he just does what he wants. Like yesterday... 453 00:49:17,648 --> 00:49:20,651 ...I was standing in the front yard and Susan came over to talk. 454 00:49:20,735 --> 00:49:23,196 And that little brat of hers Christopher came... 455 00:49:23,232 --> 00:49:25,396 ...running over waving that damned gun of his around. 456 00:49:25,489 --> 00:49:29,618 And our little dog walked right up, hiked his leg... 457 00:49:29,701 --> 00:49:32,245 ...and peed all over Christopher's new tennis shoes. 458 00:49:32,329 --> 00:49:34,956 All over Christopher actually. 459 00:49:35,040 --> 00:49:37,532 And of course, I had to act like I was upset 460 00:49:37,626 --> 00:49:40,660 It was so perfectly executed you should have seen it. 461 00:49:40,754 --> 00:49:43,538 After all the times those kids have tortured that poor dog. 462 00:49:44,883 --> 00:49:47,094 I mean, you should take a lesson from him. They don't... 463 00:49:47,177 --> 00:49:49,846 They don't stay up all night worrying. 464 00:49:49,930 --> 00:49:53,631 They figured out how to get the two of us to do exactly what they want. 465 00:49:53,725 --> 00:49:58,477 They are basically very sophisticated little parasites when you think about it. 466 00:49:58,513 --> 00:50:02,317 Well, the dumbest creatures are the happiest. Just look at your mother. 467 00:50:05,404 --> 00:50:07,447 He's really just living the moment. 468 00:50:09,533 --> 00:50:11,243 It's like now. 469 00:50:11,326 --> 00:50:13,954 What could be better than being tucked up here with you? 470 00:50:17,833 --> 00:50:21,335 If I died right now it would be OK. 471 00:50:23,421 --> 00:50:28,551 Well, it wouldn't be OK with me so why don't you shut up and go change the record. 472 00:50:30,428 --> 00:50:32,638 Good answer. 473 00:50:33,497 --> 00:50:34,897 You know what? I was thinking about taking them up... 474 00:50:34,933 --> 00:50:37,894 ...to Denver with me next week if it's okay with you. 475 00:50:38,102 --> 00:50:39,510 It's my mom. She loves them. 476 00:50:39,603 --> 00:50:43,023 Probably that recognition of a similar mind. 477 00:50:46,527 --> 00:50:48,487 You stay there, old man. 478 00:54:33,625 --> 00:54:38,036 No, I did not forget the gin. I'll see you in ten minutes. 479 00:55:22,381 --> 00:55:25,175 Christopher, would you like it if I killed you? 480 00:55:25,212 --> 00:55:26,354 I don't know. 481 00:55:26,390 --> 00:55:28,971 If you keep this up we're going to find out. 482 00:55:29,054 --> 00:55:32,141 So, why don't you go home and stop shooting people? 483 00:56:03,087 --> 00:56:04,881 I'm so happy to see you. 484 00:56:10,178 --> 00:56:11,752 Come on in. 485 00:56:14,515 --> 00:56:17,352 It smells wonderful. I'm very hungry. Where is Lois? 486 00:56:17,435 --> 00:56:20,104 I gave her the night off. I'm cooking myself. 487 00:56:20,188 --> 00:56:22,346 - You are? - Yes, I'm trying something new. 488 00:56:22,440 --> 00:56:25,276 - Charley darling, ''you cooking' is new. - Don't be smart. 489 00:56:25,360 --> 00:56:28,196 I'm in a good mood tonight. I'm going to be fun. 490 00:56:28,279 --> 00:56:30,948 I've already made two New Year's resolutions. 491 00:56:31,032 --> 00:56:34,388 Resolution one: No more talk that of awful ex-husbands... 492 00:56:34,425 --> 00:56:36,330 ..and children who don't give a damn. 493 00:56:36,412 --> 00:56:37,695 - And the other one? - One what? 494 00:56:37,789 --> 00:56:39,499 Resolution. 495 00:56:39,582 --> 00:56:44,461 Resolution two: More smoking and more drinking and screw it all! So come on... 496 00:56:44,544 --> 00:56:46,004 ...mix me up a drink. 497 00:56:46,088 --> 00:56:48,079 I'll have a gin and tonic, please. 498 00:56:48,173 --> 00:56:50,300 - And watch out baby! - Coming up. 499 00:56:55,138 --> 00:56:59,351 - It was sweet of you to come tonight. - Sweet had nothing to do with it. 500 00:57:00,310 --> 00:57:04,439 - I needed to see you. - Come off it. 501 00:57:04,523 --> 00:57:07,807 Whenever you do something sweet you're too ashamed to admit it. 502 00:57:09,277 --> 00:57:12,030 Here is to our early New Year's resolutions. 503 00:57:14,241 --> 00:57:16,065 Cheers. 504 00:57:17,494 --> 00:57:19,486 What are your resolutions by the way? 505 00:57:21,123 --> 00:57:26,034 To let go of the past completely, entirely, and forever. 506 00:57:28,255 --> 00:57:29,881 Light me up, will you? 507 00:57:38,055 --> 00:57:40,839 Darling, you don’t look well. 508 00:57:40,933 --> 00:57:43,712 Do you remember that little heart attack you had last year? 509 00:57:43,748 --> 00:57:46,064 - It wasn’t a heart attack. - Well whatever it was darling... 510 00:57:46,147 --> 00:57:47,971 ...you don’t look so hot. 511 00:57:48,065 --> 00:57:51,350 I’m fine. I never felt better. 512 00:57:51,444 --> 00:57:55,395 - I'm a little tired. I haven't been sleeping... - Geo, it's normal. 513 00:57:55,489 --> 00:57:57,397 You were with Jim for 16 years. 514 00:57:57,491 --> 00:58:00,202 I think about Richard every day. 515 00:58:00,286 --> 00:58:02,027 It’s hard being alone. 516 00:58:03,497 --> 00:58:06,584 At least you have a job and a life. 517 00:58:07,877 --> 00:58:10,285 Let’s have a bit of dinner shall we? 518 00:58:10,379 --> 00:58:14,790 Because I’ve worked so very hard. 519 00:58:16,260 --> 00:58:19,346 - What are you talking about? - Seriously, there no such thing as old anymore. 520 00:58:19,430 --> 00:58:23,434 The other day one of my students has called me a senior citizen. 521 00:58:23,517 --> 00:58:25,425 I wouldn't mind if old didn't exist... 522 00:58:25,462 --> 00:58:28,513 ...but I'm not sure senior is what I'm aiming for either. 523 00:58:28,606 --> 00:58:31,149 It's all becoming so bland. It's not why I came to America. 524 00:58:31,232 --> 00:58:33,526 It's like a complete breakdown of culture and manners. 525 00:58:33,610 --> 00:58:36,321 The young ones have no manners. 526 00:58:36,404 --> 00:58:40,481 The other day at the car wash a young man looked me up and down... 527 00:58:40,575 --> 00:58:42,952 ...and actually asked me if I was a natural blonde. 528 00:58:43,036 --> 00:58:45,027 - What did you say? - I looked him straight in the eye... 529 00:58:45,121 --> 00:58:48,823 ...and said: ''Let's just say if I stood on my head... 530 00:58:48,917 --> 00:58:50,627 ...I would be a natural brunette with lovely breath.” 531 00:58:50,710 --> 00:58:52,754 - You didn't! - I did! 532 00:58:54,714 --> 00:58:59,542 And the amusing thing was that it went right over his head! 533 00:58:59,636 --> 00:59:02,128 You know, you had a mouth on you even back in London. 534 00:59:02,222 --> 00:59:04,849 Do you remember that old lesbian who threw her drink over your head... 535 00:59:04,933 --> 00:59:07,644 ...because you asked her if she was hung like a donut. 536 00:59:17,987 --> 00:59:19,614 Geo. 537 00:59:19,697 --> 00:59:22,189 We could always go back to London. The two of us. 538 00:59:22,283 --> 00:59:25,869 - No, thanks. - You know you miss it. 539 00:59:25,953 --> 00:59:26,901 I miss it sometimes. 540 00:59:28,288 --> 00:59:30,363 Maybe if Jim had lived. 541 00:59:30,457 --> 00:59:33,377 He loved being in England. He asked us to stay the last time we were there. 542 00:59:33,460 --> 00:59:35,952 Do you really think you would have moved? 543 00:59:37,881 --> 00:59:40,801 I don't know. It's silly to even talk about it. It was only a fantasy. 544 00:59:49,142 --> 00:59:50,884 What's this? 545 00:59:50,978 --> 00:59:53,105 It's my mother's wedding ring. 546 00:59:53,981 --> 00:59:56,306 I found it a drawer when I was cleaning out. 547 01:00:03,282 --> 01:00:06,034 Charley my dear, you and I are both in need of another drink. 548 01:01:37,874 --> 01:01:39,834 Wait! Wait, wait! 549 01:01:49,386 --> 01:01:51,377 I love this! 550 01:01:51,471 --> 01:01:53,848 - You're insane! - Come on, old man! 551 01:03:13,593 --> 01:03:15,167 Don't move. 552 01:03:23,770 --> 01:03:25,344 Thank you. 553 01:03:35,114 --> 01:03:39,243 - Very smooth cigarette move. - I've always wanted to do that. 554 01:03:40,912 --> 01:03:42,194 You don't even smoke. 555 01:03:42,288 --> 01:03:44,832 Well, not for the last sixteen years. Jim hated it. 556 01:03:45,833 --> 01:03:48,701 What's to stop me now? It's not as if he's gonna to kill me. 557 01:03:55,009 --> 01:03:58,678 This is so nice, lying here with you. 558 01:04:00,764 --> 01:04:02,450 Don't you ever miss this? 559 01:04:03,452 --> 01:04:05,693 What we could have been to each other? 560 01:04:06,269 --> 01:04:09,106 Having a real relationship and kids? 561 01:04:12,401 --> 01:04:16,780 - I had Jim. - I know, but I mean a real relationship. 562 01:04:17,716 --> 01:04:21,827 Geo, let's be honest, what you and Jim had together was wonderful but... 563 01:04:23,186 --> 01:04:25,956 ...wasn't it really just a substitute for something else? 564 01:04:29,209 --> 01:04:32,045 Is that really what you think after all of these years? 565 01:04:34,214 --> 01:04:38,625 You think Jim was just some kind of substitute for real love? 566 01:04:42,431 --> 01:04:45,965 Jim was not a substitute for anything. 567 01:04:47,102 --> 01:04:48,562 Do you understand? 568 01:04:48,645 --> 01:04:50,739 There is no substitute for Jim... 569 01:04:50,775 --> 01:04:52,638 ...anywhere! 570 01:04:52,731 --> 01:04:55,532 And by the way, what is so real about your relationship with Richard? 571 01:04:55,569 --> 01:04:58,519 He left you after nine years! 572 01:04:59,530 --> 01:05:01,715 Jim and I were together for sixteen years! 573 01:05:01,752 --> 01:05:04,066 And if he hadn't died we would still be together! 574 01:05:04,160 --> 01:05:05,703 What the hell is not real about that? 575 01:05:05,786 --> 01:05:08,330 I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 576 01:05:08,414 --> 01:05:11,041 I know how much the two of you loved each other. 577 01:05:12,084 --> 01:05:15,702 I suppose I'm just jealous that you and I never had that kind of love. 578 01:05:18,924 --> 01:05:22,011 Actually, I've never had that kind of love with anybody. 579 01:05:23,804 --> 01:05:26,182 I don't think Richard ever loved me... 580 01:05:26,678 --> 01:05:27,748 ...except for the way I looked. 581 01:05:28,728 --> 01:05:29,706 And Clay... 582 01:05:29,742 --> 01:05:31,962 I don't know. You raise a child and love it... 583 01:05:31,999 --> 01:05:34,052 ...and then when they are old enough they just leave. 584 01:05:34,997 --> 01:05:36,832 Charley, there is nothing wrong with your life. 585 01:05:36,948 --> 01:05:39,870 You just like feeling sorry for yourself. It's one of your great pleasures. 586 01:05:39,907 --> 01:05:41,979 And it's not one of yours? 587 01:05:42,102 --> 01:05:44,048 You're as pathetic as I am. 588 01:05:44,085 --> 01:05:47,043 Feeling sorry for myself is definitely not one of my great pleasures. 589 01:05:47,080 --> 01:05:50,292 Well, it's not one of mine either. I don't like feeling sorry for myself one bit. 590 01:05:50,329 --> 01:05:52,113 I tried to hold onto Richard for so long... 591 01:05:52,207 --> 01:05:54,334 ...even when it was obvious to everyone but me that it was over. 592 01:05:54,417 --> 01:05:55,875 And now Clay is grown up. 593 01:05:55,911 --> 01:05:58,421 I mean, what am I doing here Geo? Tell me, what? 594 01:05:58,505 --> 01:06:00,830 You have plenty of friends. You'll be fine. 595 01:06:00,924 --> 01:06:03,591 Yes, I have friends. But none of them need me. 596 01:06:03,627 --> 01:06:07,232 And yes I have you and if you weren't such a goddamn poof we could have all been happy! 597 01:06:13,895 --> 01:06:16,304 I only have you now because you lost Jim. 598 01:06:16,397 --> 01:06:19,567 Soon I'll lose you to someone else. It's not as easy for a woman. 599 01:06:19,651 --> 01:06:21,482 I've done everything the way I was supposed to and... 600 01:06:21,518 --> 01:06:23,738 ...all I have to keep me company is a bottle of gin. 601 01:06:23,822 --> 01:06:25,941 Maybe you should try donuts with your gin. 602 01:06:27,408 --> 01:06:29,202 Screw you. 603 01:06:31,871 --> 01:06:34,655 Charlotte, you are dramatic. 604 01:06:34,749 --> 01:06:36,094 I swear you really almost had me. 605 01:06:36,131 --> 01:06:40,088 A tiny tear was beginning to form in the corner of my eye. 606 01:06:40,170 --> 01:06:41,797 Now stop it. 607 01:06:41,880 --> 01:06:44,883 You are still breathtakingly beautiful. 608 01:06:46,176 --> 01:06:48,159 When you can be bothered to get up and out of bed... 609 01:06:48,196 --> 01:06:51,266 ...and you stop whimpering about everything for five minutes. 610 01:06:51,974 --> 01:06:54,924 Go to London. Change your life. 611 01:06:55,018 --> 01:06:57,479 If you're not happy being a woman then stop acting like one. 612 01:06:57,563 --> 01:06:59,022 You have all the answers. 613 01:07:00,482 --> 01:07:02,776 No, I don't have any to mention. 614 01:07:02,860 --> 01:07:05,727 If you're so smart why don't you have something new in your life? 615 01:07:05,821 --> 01:07:07,051 Take that position at Stanford. 616 01:07:07,088 --> 01:07:10,075 You complain about that little school but you could go anywhere you want. 617 01:07:10,112 --> 01:07:12,567 I think what I've done has been worthwhile. 618 01:07:12,661 --> 01:07:14,903 I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 619 01:07:14,997 --> 01:07:17,155 I shouldn't have said that. 620 01:07:18,125 --> 01:07:20,700 As much as I dread it, I think I will go back to London. 621 01:07:20,794 --> 01:07:22,702 Why do you dread it? 622 01:07:22,796 --> 01:07:26,331 When I lived in London last I was young. I was fresh, I was everything. 623 01:07:27,551 --> 01:07:31,336 Coming to America was such a dream, it was the icing on the cake. 624 01:07:31,430 --> 01:07:33,807 Going home is defeat. 625 01:07:33,891 --> 01:07:36,517 None of it really worked out the way I'd planned. 626 01:07:36,601 --> 01:07:39,604 Most things don't work out the way people plan. 627 01:07:41,606 --> 01:07:44,692 You're just living in the past. You need to start thinking about your future. 628 01:07:44,775 --> 01:07:47,862 Living in the past is my future. 629 01:07:48,696 --> 01:07:51,616 It doesn't have to be yours. You're a man. 630 01:07:52,950 --> 01:07:55,192 And you're a bore tonight. 631 01:07:56,287 --> 01:07:59,571 Can't we just feel sorry for ourselves a little bit longer? 632 01:07:59,665 --> 01:08:01,437 Let's have another drink. 633 01:08:01,473 --> 01:08:04,546 - I don't think so. I have to go. Come on. Walk me out. - Please, please! 634 01:08:04,629 --> 01:08:07,128 - Come on, I have to! - No, this was such fun! No. 635 01:08:16,432 --> 01:08:18,007 When will I see you again? 636 01:08:20,311 --> 01:08:23,512 - Aren't you going to England? - I'll never do that! 637 01:08:23,606 --> 01:08:25,566 It's far too much effort. 638 01:08:26,400 --> 01:08:31,477 Besides, I don't think Jim would want me to leave you here in LA all alone. 639 01:08:32,130 --> 01:08:35,632 Don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I've got all the answers. Remember? 640 01:08:36,493 --> 01:08:38,370 What are you doing this weekend? 641 01:08:39,663 --> 01:08:42,290 I think I might just be very quiet. 642 01:08:44,125 --> 01:08:47,629 You never really did take me seriously, did you George? 643 01:08:47,712 --> 01:08:50,830 I tried to Charley. Remember? A long time ago. 644 01:08:52,592 --> 01:08:54,552 It didn't really work out, did it? 645 01:08:56,846 --> 01:08:58,254 No, Charley. 646 01:09:05,313 --> 01:09:06,856 Sleep tight. 647 01:09:50,566 --> 01:09:54,153 Patrick, a beer and a packet of Lucky Strike, please. 648 01:10:38,810 --> 01:10:40,241 Excuse me. 649 01:10:55,463 --> 01:10:57,673 It's too hot in there. 650 01:10:57,757 --> 01:10:59,217 Yes, it is. 651 01:10:59,300 --> 01:11:01,969 - Would you like a cigarette? - No thanks, I don't smoke. 652 01:11:03,596 --> 01:11:07,517 - This place is really crowded. - Well, it is Saturday night. 653 01:11:08,726 --> 01:11:10,201 It's usually as bad as this. 654 01:11:10,237 --> 01:11:14,314 People normally just stop by and pick someone up and then head on down the beach. 655 01:11:14,398 --> 01:11:16,389 Yeah. It's pretty wild out there. 656 01:11:16,483 --> 01:11:19,267 I'm surprised the cops don't break it up. 657 01:11:19,361 --> 01:11:21,905 - Is it always like that? - Since the war ended. 658 01:11:22,989 --> 01:11:25,489 It's pretty great actually. It's kind of pagan. 659 01:11:26,993 --> 01:11:29,121 - I'm Jim. - I'm George. 660 01:11:29,204 --> 01:11:30,281 Pleased to meet you Jim. 661 01:11:30,318 --> 01:11:33,532 I'm sorry, I'm supposed to meet some friends but I can't find them. 662 01:11:33,625 --> 01:11:38,255 I just needed to get out of the house but the lure of a cold beer got to me. 663 01:11:38,929 --> 01:11:40,155 Do you live hereby? 664 01:11:40,191 --> 01:11:41,789 Canyon. 665 01:11:41,883 --> 01:11:44,042 - For how long? - Since 38. 666 01:11:44,136 --> 01:11:46,294 - Where are you from? - Colorado. 667 01:11:47,806 --> 01:11:51,040 I really like it here. It's close to beach. 668 01:11:52,853 --> 01:11:55,178 I think I might stay after I'm discharged. 669 01:11:55,981 --> 01:11:58,932 I don't know, maybe I'm a bit of a pagan. 670 01:12:03,455 --> 01:12:05,257 - After you. - No. 671 01:12:11,704 --> 01:12:13,278 Sorry. 672 01:12:20,796 --> 01:12:23,174 - Well, hello. - Hi. 673 01:12:24,800 --> 01:12:26,959 Do you buy me a drink? 674 01:12:28,721 --> 01:12:30,629 I think I'm taken. 675 01:12:32,016 --> 01:12:35,050 Too bad, too bad. 676 01:12:37,605 --> 01:12:40,065 Do you want another beer? 677 01:13:36,412 --> 01:13:40,708 Patrick, a bottle of scotch and a pack of Lucky Strikes to go, please? 678 01:13:50,552 --> 01:13:52,209 Patrick, cancel that. 679 01:14:03,939 --> 01:14:05,764 Well, hello Mr. Potter. 680 01:14:05,857 --> 01:14:07,901 Hello, sir. 681 01:14:09,403 --> 01:14:11,895 - What are we drinking? - Scotch. 682 01:14:12,739 --> 01:14:13,938 Okay. 683 01:14:20,372 --> 01:14:25,033 I come here all the time. I live just around the corner, but then you knew that. 684 01:14:25,127 --> 01:14:26,920 On Camphor Tree Lane. 685 01:14:33,093 --> 01:14:35,053 You're still carrying that around. 686 01:14:37,097 --> 01:14:39,641 One must always appreciate life's little gifts. 687 01:14:44,563 --> 01:14:45,898 So, what are you doing here? 688 01:14:46,690 --> 01:14:48,706 - Just out for a ride on my bike. - Is that all? 689 01:14:49,943 --> 01:14:50,974 I don't know. 690 01:14:51,068 --> 01:14:52,726 Were you looking for me? 691 01:14:53,613 --> 01:14:55,604 Maybe. I don't know. 692 01:14:56,240 --> 01:14:58,148 I feel like my head's stopped up with stuff. 693 01:14:58,242 --> 01:14:59,430 What kind of stuff? 694 01:14:59,466 --> 01:15:01,919 Like, the stuff you were talking about today in class. 695 01:15:01,955 --> 01:15:03,738 That is definitely not important. 696 01:15:03,831 --> 01:15:06,323 No, it is important. Your class is great. 697 01:15:06,417 --> 01:15:10,963 But somehow we always seem to get stuck talking about the past. 698 01:15:11,047 --> 01:15:12,673 The past just doesn't matter to me. 699 01:15:12,757 --> 01:15:16,594 - The present? - I can't wait for the present to be over. 700 01:15:16,677 --> 01:15:18,669 It's a total drag. 701 01:15:19,513 --> 01:15:21,724 Well, tonight is the exception. 702 01:15:23,184 --> 01:15:25,092 What? 703 01:15:25,186 --> 01:15:28,189 Tonight, yes! The present, no! 704 01:15:28,981 --> 01:15:30,316 Let's drink to tonight. 705 01:15:30,399 --> 01:15:32,610 Tonight. 706 01:15:34,487 --> 01:15:36,621 So if the past doesn't matter and the present is a total drag. 707 01:15:36,658 --> 01:15:38,565 What about the future? 708 01:15:38,658 --> 01:15:42,328 What future? Cuba might just blow us up. 709 01:15:42,411 --> 01:15:44,042 Death is the future. 710 01:15:44,079 --> 01:15:45,970 I'm sorry. I don't mean to be depressing. 711 01:15:46,039 --> 01:15:48,276 It's not depressing. It's not depressing, it's true. 712 01:15:48,312 --> 01:15:51,405 It may not be your immediate future but it's what we all share. 713 01:15:52,170 --> 01:15:53,578 Death is the future. 714 01:15:53,672 --> 01:15:55,747 You're right, I guess. 715 01:15:55,840 --> 01:15:58,860 If one is not enjoying one's present there isn't a great deal to... 716 01:15:58,897 --> 01:16:00,927 ...suggest that the future should be any better. 717 01:16:01,627 --> 01:16:03,448 Yeah, I've thought that before. 718 01:16:04,182 --> 01:16:07,467 But the thing is you just never know. 719 01:16:08,353 --> 01:16:09,635 Look at tonight. 720 01:16:13,775 --> 01:16:15,485 Actually... 721 01:16:15,568 --> 01:16:18,061 ...I feel really alone most of the time. 722 01:16:18,631 --> 01:16:20,313 - You do? - Yeah. 723 01:16:21,324 --> 01:16:22,968 I've always felt this way. 724 01:16:23,004 --> 01:16:26,444 I mean we're born alone, we die alone. 725 01:16:26,538 --> 01:16:31,084 And while we're here we are absolutely, completely sealed in our own bodies. 726 01:16:32,168 --> 01:16:33,826 Really weird. 727 01:16:34,921 --> 01:16:37,590 Kinda freaks me out to think about it. 728 01:16:37,674 --> 01:16:42,584 We can only experience the outside world through our own slanted perception of it. 729 01:16:44,304 --> 01:16:46,463 Who knows what you're really like? 730 01:16:46,557 --> 01:16:50,936 - I just see what I think you're like. - I'm exactly what I appear to be. 731 01:16:53,689 --> 01:16:56,066 If you look closely. 732 01:17:01,739 --> 01:17:05,357 You know the only thing that has made the whole thing worthwhile... 733 01:17:06,410 --> 01:17:07,953 ...has been those... 734 01:17:08,662 --> 01:17:12,989 ...few times that I've been able to really, truly connect with another human being. 735 01:17:16,337 --> 01:17:18,245 I had a hunch about you, sir. 736 01:17:18,638 --> 01:17:20,247 - You did? - Yes, sir. 737 01:17:21,091 --> 01:17:23,844 I had a hunch you might be a real romantic. 738 01:17:29,266 --> 01:17:32,134 You know, everyone keeps telling you that... 739 01:17:32,227 --> 01:17:35,020 ...when you're older, that you'll have all this experience. 740 01:17:35,056 --> 01:17:36,798 Like it's some great thing. 741 01:17:36,834 --> 01:17:38,310 That's a load of shit. 742 01:17:38,868 --> 01:17:41,133 I think I've actually just gotten sillier and sillier. 743 01:17:41,170 --> 01:17:43,404 - Really? - Absolutely. 744 01:17:43,488 --> 01:17:46,272 So, all your experience is useless. 745 01:17:47,950 --> 01:17:49,608 No, I wouldn't say that. 746 01:17:50,453 --> 01:17:53,584 As our friend Mr. Huxley says: Experience is not what happens to a man. 747 01:17:53,621 --> 01:17:56,466 It is what a man does with what happens to him. 748 01:17:58,294 --> 01:18:00,171 - Let's go swimming. - Okay. 749 01:18:01,881 --> 01:18:04,425 - What? - It was a test. 750 01:18:04,509 --> 01:18:07,261 I thought you were bluffing about being silly so... 751 01:18:07,345 --> 01:18:12,256 ...I said to myself I'll suggest doing something completely outrageous. 752 01:18:12,350 --> 01:18:16,729 And if he resists, if he even hesitates then I know he's full of shit. 753 01:18:18,773 --> 01:18:20,681 Well, I wasn't. Were you? 754 01:18:21,776 --> 01:18:23,403 Hell, no! 755 01:18:41,253 --> 01:18:43,463 Come on sir. I'll help you down. 756 01:18:45,340 --> 01:18:46,883 Let's go. 757 01:19:32,970 --> 01:19:34,847 Come on, sir. 758 01:20:08,297 --> 01:20:10,289 Sir? 759 01:20:10,841 --> 01:20:12,551 Sir? 760 01:20:22,435 --> 01:20:25,011 That's enough for now, sir. 761 01:20:25,688 --> 01:20:28,358 - I'm fine. - I'm cold. Come on. 762 01:20:41,830 --> 01:20:43,571 Can we go back to your place, sir? 763 01:20:43,665 --> 01:20:46,209 Of course. Where else? 764 01:20:47,418 --> 01:20:49,546 - Where else. - Are you out of your mind? 765 01:20:49,629 --> 01:20:53,581 - What's the matter? - You can't get home like that! 766 01:20:53,675 --> 01:20:55,552 We're invisible, don't you know that? 767 01:20:57,595 --> 01:21:00,179 You know sir, they ought not to let you out on your own. 768 01:21:00,429 --> 01:21:02,340 You're liable to get into real trouble. 769 01:21:02,642 --> 01:21:04,884 I excel at it. 770 01:21:04,978 --> 01:21:07,021 Your forehead is bleeding. 771 01:21:30,919 --> 01:21:34,590 The bathroom is just down the hall if you would like to take a shower. 772 01:21:34,673 --> 01:21:37,050 Aren't you taking a shower too, sir? 773 01:21:37,134 --> 01:21:40,502 I'm fine. I'm English. We like to be cold and wet. 774 01:21:40,596 --> 01:21:43,067 First, I think that we need to take care of that cut, sir. 775 01:21:43,103 --> 01:21:44,617 Do you have any band-aids? 776 01:21:48,604 --> 01:21:51,834 - Going camping, sir? - I'm fine, really. 777 01:21:53,275 --> 01:21:55,068 Stay there. I'll be right back. 778 01:22:39,195 --> 01:22:40,853 Sit up. 779 01:22:42,365 --> 01:22:44,241 Tilt your head back. 780 01:23:09,099 --> 01:23:11,655 Well sir, I'm afraid this time you don't have... 781 01:23:11,692 --> 01:23:14,497 ...the excuse of mescaline to explain your band-aid. 782 01:23:16,272 --> 01:23:18,942 I think we should get you out of those wet clothes. 783 01:23:21,486 --> 01:23:22,977 Yes, sir. 784 01:24:56,079 --> 01:24:59,196 - You're not too cold? - I'm great. 785 01:24:59,290 --> 01:25:02,158 - Would you like a drink? - A beer, sir. If you have one. 786 01:25:02,251 --> 01:25:05,119 I'm afraid that's all we have. 787 01:25:05,213 --> 01:25:06,871 Two beers coming up. 788 01:25:21,187 --> 01:25:23,940 - You live here all by yourself, sir? - I do now. 789 01:25:24,023 --> 01:25:26,974 I used to share this place with a friend. He was an architect. 790 01:25:27,068 --> 01:25:30,959 Man, guys my age dream about the kind of setup you've got here. 791 01:25:30,996 --> 01:25:33,783 I mean, what more can you want? 792 01:25:33,866 --> 01:25:37,401 You get to be left alone and come and go as you please. 793 01:25:39,122 --> 01:25:40,906 Is that's your idea of the perfect life? 794 01:25:40,942 --> 01:25:42,993 What's the matter, sir? Don't you believe me? 795 01:25:43,543 --> 01:25:45,652 If you're so keen on the idea living by yourself... 796 01:25:45,689 --> 01:25:47,552 ...where does Lois fit into this plan? 797 01:25:47,679 --> 01:25:50,857 Lois? What's she got to do with anything? 798 01:25:51,466 --> 01:25:53,545 I got the impression that you and she were together. 799 01:25:56,805 --> 01:26:00,142 Not really. She is kind of cool and... 800 01:26:00,860 --> 01:26:02,769 ...we're good friends but... 801 01:26:04,813 --> 01:26:07,764 I think what you really want to ask me is if we sleep together. 802 01:26:09,151 --> 01:26:11,559 - And do you? - We did. Once. 803 01:26:11,653 --> 01:26:15,949 - Why only once? - I didn't say only once, I said once. 804 01:26:17,200 --> 01:26:19,984 Come on, the last thing I want to talk about right now is Lois. 805 01:26:20,078 --> 01:26:21,569 What time is it? 806 01:26:24,166 --> 01:26:26,293 My watch seems to have stopped. 807 01:26:33,258 --> 01:26:34,832 Do you want me to go? 808 01:26:35,802 --> 01:26:38,378 You must be kidding. Go, get us another beer. 809 01:26:39,972 --> 01:26:41,849 Is that an order, sir? 810 01:26:43,726 --> 01:26:44,832 You're damn right it is. 811 01:26:56,655 --> 01:26:58,365 Pathetic. 812 01:26:59,617 --> 01:27:01,660 Did you say something, sir? 813 01:27:06,081 --> 01:27:07,573 Why are you here? 814 01:27:09,752 --> 01:27:15,289 Why did you get to the office and ask secretary for my address? 815 01:27:16,801 --> 01:27:21,197 I just wanted to see you someplace other than school. 816 01:27:22,348 --> 01:27:24,089 Why? 817 01:27:27,228 --> 01:27:31,177 Sometimes I think I'm crazy cause I see things so differently than everyone else. 818 01:27:32,472 --> 01:27:34,223 I feel like I can talk to you. 819 01:27:35,650 --> 01:27:38,696 To be honest sir, I was also worried about you today. 820 01:27:43,660 --> 01:27:45,151 Me? 821 01:27:45,245 --> 01:27:48,029 What's to be worried about? 822 01:27:48,790 --> 01:27:50,333 I'm fine. 823 01:27:59,384 --> 01:28:00,958 I'm... 824 01:28:02,178 --> 01:28:03,721 I'm fine. 825 01:30:47,574 --> 01:30:52,113 A few times in my life I've had moments of absolute clarity. 826 01:30:54,931 --> 01:30:57,067 When for a few brief seconds... 827 01:30:57,934 --> 01:31:00,203 ...the silence drowns out the noise... 828 01:31:00,240 --> 01:31:03,623 ...and I can feel rather than think. 829 01:31:04,482 --> 01:31:06,641 And things seem so sharp... 830 01:31:07,610 --> 01:31:09,685 And the world seems so fresh... 831 01:31:11,323 --> 01:31:14,575 ...as though it had all just come into existence. 832 01:31:34,636 --> 01:31:36,793 I can never make these moments last. 833 01:31:37,875 --> 01:31:39,245 I cling to them... 834 01:31:39,282 --> 01:31:41,456 ...but like everything they fade. 835 01:31:43,520 --> 01:31:45,762 I've lived my live on these moments. 836 01:31:47,232 --> 01:31:49,026 They pull me back to the present... 837 01:31:51,236 --> 01:31:56,078 ...and I realize that everything is exactly the way it was meant to be. 838 01:34:16,045 --> 01:34:19,419 And just like that it came. 839 01:34:26,455 --> 01:34:30,205 Subtitles by Ruthless